Halloween

Happy Halloween!! To me (apparently) Halloween means make Cinnamon rolls and then color the frosting slimy green. It was yummy.

I spent the day cleaning. My roommate and I had a party last night- but she was sick then and she's sick now- so I ended up doing most of the cleaning (which was OK). But I am tired. So, therefore not at all feeling guilty about eating a Cinnamon roll. I might have a second one. In a minute. :D

Last nights party was pretty fun. My friends and I got together and.... casually mingled. It was interesting. Though I must work harder to get people to understand what Steampunk is. Most people didn't get it. Ha. Victorian era clothing that shows really cool steam technology. I REALLY must improve it in the future. I need to like.... have a machine gun arm. Ha. Next year. It'll be better.

I spent a few days up in Idaho this last week with my Brother's family. He and his wife left town and I got to wrangle the monkeys for them. It was a lot of fun- and I got to take them trick or treating. I haven't been around kids that "belonged" to me in quite a few years. So it was kinda a special treat.

The kids didn't act up or anything on me- so that was nice. But the littlest one kept joining me in bed at night (which was cute) but about every half hour he'd take either his foot or hand and he'd like... stroke my arm or back. Totally kept me up. I guess he felt I needed to know what it was like to handle kids on less than a full nights sleep. Good job- he succeeded.

Speaking of not sleeping. Could you imagine what it would be like to be the house across the street from this house? Ha. Cool display- but I think it'd get REALLY old after an hour or so.

Peace out. Later.

Im blue.

Recently, some friends tried to convince me that I'm a red in the color code. I'm not. I've taken several tests and I keep coming out as a Blue. I think they misunderstand Blues. Blues are not afraid of confrontation- but we're more likely to be confrontational when protecting someone- or feeling like you need to protect them.

I don't know why I don't like Reds. They are just so unsympathetic. All the people I've known to be Reds- I've never gotten along with them. Probably because I'm not scared to stick up for my self. And to be honest, I don't get "dry personalities". Its VERY hard for me to tell when their being serious or not.

Bullying has been in the news a lot recently. Its weird for me because I was a bullied child- and still have a lot of insecurities about me because of it. Because of that I'm ALOT more ready to stand up for my self and others when I sense bulling going on. Protective to the point of being willing to cut people from my life who I consider bullies. I've done it in the past and I'll do it again.

As a child I was much more likely to avoid people and situations when I wasn't comfortable. Even though I LOVED dancing, (I was horrible at it) when I was faced with bullying at the lessons I would just quit. The same with sports and almost everything I tried. I think that's why I like Nerds. And Nerdy things. Nerds are just like- forget you- I'll do what I want. This is who I am. Then they let their nerd flags fly proudly. :)

Its strange to me that their focusing soooo much on the gay bullying. Not that's its COMPLETELY valid and needs to be worked on. But as a child- a teen even- I was bullied for being LDS and for being larger than my classmates. I mean- in middle school I had a classmate ask me when I was going to grow my horns and tail- because their church had taught them that Mormons would LITERALLY grow horns and tails as apart of their religious worship. I'm an adult now and completely understand and have sympathy for those out their who feel the need to bully- as I now understand that they are also insecure. They just express it in the opposite way. And the large thing? I now understand that by genetics I just matured quickly and was an "Adult" by sophomore year. Yeah. That was fun. Ha.

Anyway. Point is. I'm a blue. I'm insecure- I'm protective and I want to be understood. I know I ramble on and on in this blog- but that's the point of it. I mean- I didn't call it "musings on life" because I wasn't interested in sharing my point of view. Take it or leave it. It's out there for the world to see. And I know the world does see it- because I can see them. Anyway- here's an explanation of blues:

BLUES are motivated by intimacy. They seek opportunities to genuinely connect with other and need to be understood and appreciated. Everything they do is quality-based. They are loyal friends, employers and employees. Whatever or whomever they commit to is their sole (and soul) focus. They love to serve and give freely of themselves in order to nurture others' lives. BLUES have distinct preferences and are the most controlling personality. Their code of ethics is remarkably strong and they expect others to live honest, committed lives as well. They enjoy sharing meaningful moments in conversation as well as remembering special life events (i.e. birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are dependable, thoughtful, analytical and can be self-righteous, worry-prone and moody. They are like "sainted pit-bulls" who never let go of something or someone once they are committed. When you deal with a BLUE, be sincere and make a genuine effort to understand and appreciate them.

I LOVE halloween. I'm super excited for this year!! I'll be having a party at my house this saturday and My costume will be AMAZING. Pictures will follow.

Just for the heck of it.....

Big Audio Dynamite - Rush (Official Music Video). Watch more top selected videos about: Big Audio Dynamite

Huh... This was playing on the radio as I drove to school this morning. Ha. While I do like this song- I'm completely mesmerized by the video. Hammer pants? Check. Random playground like backdrop? Check. Lack of theme or acting talent? Check.

However- the song itself- that I can feel. Because I DO want a change of atmosphere. I'm done living in Utah. Heaven help me- if I could move to another country, I think I would do it. London would be nice. I wonder how I could make that happen... hmmmm. I need to start drilling my friends who live over there as to how they managed it.. what do I need to do to make that happen for me? Sigh.

Yes, I know. The grass is always greener... and all that. However, while the grass may not be greener than over here- I'm sure it may be a different texture or length. Ya know? And lets me honest- UK accents are hot. Yes, I went there again. Lol.

Though- on a different level, it would be kinda a disregard for my ancestors who worked so hard to move away from there. I mean- look at all they went through to leave there... and I'm all excited about going back? Perilous sea voyage, horrific pioneer wagon cart trip... diseases.... etc. And I'm thinking about throwing it all in the air and going back. Yup. I'm kinda not thankful enough for their efforts. I should work on that.

However much though, that I can be aware of my need to be thankful, that doesn't change my restless feet. I feel the need to wander. To move. To be else where. Not that I think the people would be different, or that my life would change. I'm perfectly aware that who I am, what makes me, me. Those changes need to come from within. Location does not help that. Same with the people. Idiots are everywhere. Can't help that.

Anyway- off I go. To another day living in Utah. Its just the way things are for now. Until I figure out a way to "change my atmosphere".

This is special...

I've discovered what my "MO" is concerning guys. Apparently I'm REALLY into tall skinny dark haired- guys. I've always thought that I was into guys with curly hair... but after a reflection on things.. yeah. I've discovered a pattern here.

1) It all came to me last night as I went to a Matt Costa concert (which was amazing). After the concert he came out and was signing autographs for the fans. I TOTALLY ran to the stuff booth and bought a CD for him to sign. As I'm standing there, in his presence, I turn into the biggest idiot. Instead of saying something momentous- or kind- I start babbling like a idiot.. something like... "loved the show".

2) I've QUICKLY become obsessed with Dr. Who. Specifically- the David Tennant version. I mean how HAWT is he? Oh my goodness. He just seems to work well on so many levels- and he's legit. A real actor and a nice guy :)

3) The last guy I knew - as in, in person knew (not a celebrity :) ) who I was actually obsessed with- well, I'm not going to name him, but he was tall dark and handsome (too bad he married someone else, eh?). Anyway- I also would turn into a babbling idiot when talking to him. It was super awkward. SUPER.

4) Richard Armitage- whose playing Thorin Oakenshield in the new Hobbit- well, I was reading up on him last night BECAUSE of the new Hobbit casting- and so I was reminded of how AMAZINGLY hot he is. (side note- if you haven't seen North and South- WATCH IT NOW) He;s not super skinny- but he does have the whole Dark Haired and Tall thing.'


Point is.. sigh. I need me a tall dark and handsome man. LOL And it's always better to know and understand your motivations. Yup.